It may be summer; my garden says so. In this weirdest of times, though, I don't always feel that it is. There was a short period at the end of April when it was lovely and much sitting out was done, by me and by visitors. Since then, though, I'm not so sure. May's weather was truly dire. June has begun better and things are coming into flower ...
But what about me?
I have post-viral fatigue and have had for the past two years. It's not quite ME but it could turn into that. Fatigue and brain fog are the main symptoms in my case. On the face of it, flare-ups are unpredictable but when I consider that stress is a trigger and look for one, there always is one. It's often something small, but related to the underlying stress, e.g. currently grief. When it hits, if I don't notice and do too much, it can get significantly worse but it's very minor compared with ME and I want to keep things that way.
Most people seem unaware that for two years after a major bereavement your immune system doesn't work as well as it should. This includes it being much more likely that PVF will flare up. I am now really taking that on board and trying to be positive and know that the difficulties I'm having at this particular time will fade. I need patience (not a trait Aries people are known for!) Gradually my friends and relatives are understanding where I'm at.
So it may be summer. The grief hit really hard in the middle of May, but now I think I'm coming out of the worst now. But in the garden the summer-flowering plants are competing with spring things, like wallflowers, which shouldn't be around any more. In my life PVF is flaring up badly from time to time, along with other, minor, ailments. I'm hoping the warmth and light provided by summer - and people - will give me the patience to continue moving forwards.